I am finding myself in unfamiliar territory tonight. I'm not quite sure what to make of it. Tonight was the night that J.D. made his infamous comment about how all of us are just learning the INXS songs while he already knows them. My whole life I have seen the light in a situation and focused on people’s positive attributes as opposed to their weaknesses or darkness. I am finding it hard to do that right now and it bothers me. I'm doing some self-reflection as to why I am at my whits end with J.D. There is so much love and positivity amongst all of us and it seems that he continuously ruins that. Of course, I feel for him and I don't think he is intentionally trying to be an ass but I'm bothered that every time he gets in one of his moods, the beauty in this house is disrupted. If I dig deep and am completely honest, it's possible that my low tolerance has to do, ironically, with my fathers' death. My father was an honest and beautiful man who continuously got the short end of the stick because of his sympathetic nature. My father died w/o knowing just how loved and respected he was and that drives me crazy. In fact, it angers me. I sincerely hope that I can see the light in this situation as well and not let my personal sorrows interfere with logic. J.D. has many beautiful traits. I pray he figures it out sooner rather than later.

By the way- Jordis, Tara and Heather would like you to know that they are drunk-Ahem- I'm sorry they are tipsy while writing their journal entry right now and would like me to extend to you their apologies. Now, if you'll excuse me - I'm about to join them.