I hope that anger is not the main factor as to why right now I am having a hard time with JD. I sincerely hope I can see the light in this situation as well and not let my personal sorrow interfere with logic. JD has many beautiful traits.  I hope he chooses to show them more often. 

Ok, listen like thieves and let’s see how many INXS song titles you recognize in this journal entry:  I’ve had a pretty emotional past few days.  I hate when the devil inside takes over.  It’s the one thing that drives me mad.  It makes me want to disappear into my own little world, battle the original sin, and then come out swinging and ready to kick everyone in the head with love.  We all need a new sensation every now and then.  This time an angel slept by my side and whispered sweetly in my ear  “baby girl- here is what you need to always remember:  don’t lose your head.  Don’t’ change you know you are a beautiful girl!  All of you, every single person is a gift and the universe needs you tonight to stay strong.  I wake up with a love hangover because my angel got me elegantly wasted.  I took a look around me and thanked God that I was part of the strongest party. 

Yesterday’s elimination show was pretty heavy for us. The big blow was Neal leaving us.  I hope you all know how amazing he is, what a genuine and beautiful soul he has and how sorely missed he is already.  Neal is one of those rare people with an uncanny ability to make you smile without even trying.  I have no doubt that life will bless him simply because he deserves it and I want to always believe that good guys don’t finish last.  The world has not seen the last of him-if that’s what he chooses.  We love you Neal! Can’t wait to see you shine!!